Do you sometimes look around and feel full. Full of mess, full of tired, full of life? It strikes me sometimes…”This way of life is mine…my life.” A wife and a mother and living in rural Nebraska, and the hundreds of little details that go with that…this is my life, my full life. My very different life from what it once was.
We live with the kids, the cold, the noise, the toys, the crying, the laughing, the endless baskets of laundry, and finally the snow. We live with snow and I’m used to it now, it’s…life in these parts.
We live where we eagerly wait for family to make the long drive here, we awaited the arrival of Grandmère from Texas on Saturday, but this snow delayed her. She got here safely on Monday.
We live where a snow storm doesn’t stop the funeral of a beloved husband, father, friend. We live where the front of our house becomes a parking lot each Sunday or on those days we bury one we used to sit near in church.
We live where we watch Myron shivering in his old tractor as he plows our sidewalk and we are warm and grateful.
I live now where I could never have even imagined. What if you had told me about this life 4 short years ago? What would I have thought?
Would I have laughed? Cried!? Probably both. But I look around now and wonder at it all. Wonder at God’s blessings, wonder why He gave these gifts and these trials to me. And I thank Him.
So much in life can change so quickly and before you know it your living a reality that you may never had thought possible. The good and bad of it are yours now. And when did you slip so comfortably into it? When did it go from overwhelming to normal?
When did my sparse life get so full?
Beautiful, contempletive post.
Has it only been four years? It seems ages since you left our little world for your happily ever after! I love getting to see little glimpses of your life. Thanks for making the effort to keep us all connected. I am so glad that your life is so full. Isn’t it funny how easy it is to overlook the fullness of each day Christ gives us?
That is a lovely post. Thanks for the blessing of reading it.
Thank y’all and yes, Eugenie, it’s so easy to be discontent. I’m constantly guilty of being ungrateful, selfish and full of self pity and over what? A house FULL of blessings. God help us to be thankful.
Aubri, thank you for this. You’ve said what I’ve been feeling recently–both the overwhelmingness and the absolutely wonderful, incredible blessings of life. Those moments when I feel full of blessings, I’m overwhelmed that this is all a gift. A gift! I can’t even think of anything other to follow that up with but “Thanks be to God.”
Amen Emommy!