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A Bundle of Myrrh

"My beloved is unto me as a bundle of myrrh." Song of Solomon 1:13

34 weeks

December 26th, 2018 by Aubri

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I’m so thankful that we have made it to this point. Officially we have only a bit over 5 weeks left before we will meet this baby. I’m looking forward to and praying that day is a happy meeting.

Not knowing if we will be given more babies I wanted to enjoy this pregnancy as best I could. Even that long and emotional first trimester. I didn’t know what to expect this time, being over 40. Everything you read leads one to believe the worst about being pregnant in this decade of life. So I’m amazed that up until now this has actually been one of my very easiest pregnancies. And I’m in awe of just how healthy our baby boy is.

It seems God has blessed me in that, with being able to enjoy this time of waiting. Not that it’s been a total walk in the park but for most of this pregnancy many things that were awful in other pregnancies (SPDRLS, shortness of breath, disruptive dizziness, “pressed into the floor syndrome” I made that one up cuz I don’t know what it is) I have not even dealt with or they just haven’t been that noticeable this time or are just starting.

And some (heartburn, leg cramps, the aches, the bladder spasms, the severe itching) set in much later than they usually do so I haven’t had to deal with them for as long. I guess the hardest things to deal with has been the repeat colds I’ve been getting. I’ve had one after another since September which just make you feel more run down. The ligament pains when I get them are worse this time and then the total exhaustion I have most of this pregnancy which is partly my life and partly being very low on iron.

And more good news this pregnancy; I passed my glucose tolerance test…the first time. I do not have cholestasis causing my itching and my arthritis hasn’t flared up as much. Ahh.

This week I’ll admit, it’s getting a lot harder to waddle around, stand up or sleep without pain and I have almost no energy to do much at all. I keep thinking I’ll have a better day tomorrow but I’m starting to think I might have 5 more weeks of feeling this way or worse. Despite that and despite the fact that I wouldn’t mind just having baby out now I still want to soak all of this in just a little longer. I’ll leave this post with the words of another mama who explains this feeling better than I can:

Will I forget what it’s like to be pregnant?  Sure.  Will there come a time when it’s my last pregnancy?  Of course.  And, I don’t know when that will be.  So, if this is it, I don’t want to forget these moments…even these last ones…when I’m a bit (read a lot) more moody and difficult to be around than I should be.  I don’t want to forget the five little kiddos who ask me every morning when their sister will be here.  I don’t want to forget what it’s like to feel like this belly may burst open at any minute, as uncomfortable as it may be…because there is life inside.

5 Responses to “34 weeks”

  1. grandmere says:

    And you are beautiful!

  2. Carrie H says:

    I cannot even begin to tell you how much I love this! We are so thankful for your healthy baby and easier pregnancy. The last paragraph is great. I always have tried to treat each pregnancy like the last and try to savor every minute of it. I know pregnancy can be hard, but we never know if or when we will be blessed with another baby. Thanks be to God for his blessings.

  3. Katy says:

    Yay on the glucose test! With my next, God willing, I’ll be entering maternal geriatric phase of my life (level up!), 35. Praying for your comfort and a smooth delivery.

  4. Katie says:

    So thankful for you, Aubri! Praying all continues to go well!