Daddy and Mama have been blessed again with another miracle. God has given us another beautiful little girl, our Clara Emeline. We couldn’t wait to see you! Mama won’t forget the first time she spoke to you. How much you were crying when you came out of my tummy then how quiet you got as you listened to my voice telling you hello. We could finally see you and how much like your Daddy you looked! I see your dimpled cheek and hear your little monkey sounds and wait eagerly for your first laughs. You have forever changed our little family. We’re so happy you’re here.
Archive for the ‘Reflecting’ Category
Clara.
Friday, July 3rd, 2009
"Busy"
Friday, July 3rd, 2009
I’m on my own now with our babies. Our moms left on Monday, now it’s all up to me (with Phil’s help) to figure out how to manage the house and take care of these girls! While we waited for Clara to get here, we heard a lot of “Oh, you’ll be busy” comments from people. I do get “busy” at times, but where were all the “Oh you’ll be tired, frustrated, frazzled scatterbrained, scared, confused, alone, bored, wondering if you’ll ever feel normal again, feeling fat, dumb and frumpy with a messy house” comments? No one ever said anything about those!
After just a week of this I feel a bit “burned out”. Like I need a two day “smoke break”. I’m sure you can blame most of that feeling on pesky post-partum baby blues and lack of sleep.But when I look at these beautiful and precious girls, I know that I am so blessed. Blessed to have been given these children, blessed that they (so far) have such (for the most part) happy natures, blessed that even though it can be one crying then the other or both at once, there typically is at least one time during the day that they are actually asleep at the same time and I can just sit on my own and drink a cup of coffee. I know these days when my girls are so little and helpless won’t last forever. I look forward to the days to come but I know that I’ll look back to this time with fondness and want it all back. I know that each day with them is a good gift, each has its laughs and of course tears. I have to take one day at a time and between the melt downs and screaming, I have to enjoy what I can out of them. My babies are changing everyday, leaving somethings behind that will be gone forever and taking on new things. I wouldn’t want to miss any of it.
Milestones.
Thursday, May 21st, 2009
It’s been a big 9th month for Lily. She’s changing a lot and has come to some of those milestones I thought would never get here. She can finally roll over and is beginning to scoot on her bottom. She stands very well with some help, she’s back to eating solids a little bit at a time and finally has two little teeth coming in! She’s leaving behind so much of the little baby she was and getting closer to that toddler. It’s amazing to watch this little girl learn one thing after another. To hear her babble change into chatter. To witness slowly over time and sometimes quickly right out of nowhere her getting to each new phase. It may just be picking up a small cheerio, waving “bye-bye” or pulling up on the coffee table but watching my child do them becomes some of the proudest and exciting moments my life.
The 9th Month.
Thursday, May 21st, 2009
We’re finally getting closer to our next little one joining us on this side of the tummy. In a few weeks we’ll have two little girls. I really can’t wait to meet this new baby. I’m anxious to see how she’ll be different or similar to Lily and just anxious to get on with the way life will be so different for us. I’m a lot more tired and busy at this stage of pregnancy than I was the first time. I’ve got a cold, a lingering bladder infection and a very busy and heavy 9 month old this time too. I’ll admit, I’m ready to be on the other side of pregnancy. I’ve enjoyed this pregnancy a lot as I did the first. It’s really flown by and I can’t believe it’s almost over. Though I’m ready for to be, I feel a little sad to know that these are the last days that Lily will ever have as the “only” child. From now on she’ll only know what it’s like to have a sibling and to have to share Mama and Daddy. I’m not sure why this makes me sad. I know it may be hard for her for a while but she’ll be gaining a sister and playmate and hopefully one day a best friend. It will be good for her to learn to share us and everything else she now has all to herself and will never remember what life was like before sister. I think of how it will feel in a few years to see these two playing together and remember holding baby Lily on my tummy while sister kicked and squirmed inside. What a blessing to be given another child for me and Phil but also for Lily.
