With sad hearts we have to share the news we learned earlier this month that our unborn baby entered his eternal rest. I was pregnant for 14 weeks, he lived for 12 of those. On December 1st an ultrasound revealed that our baby had died. I delivered him at home early in the morning of December 3rd, another son. We have named him John after John the Baptist, the beloved saint we read and sing about so much during Advent.
Our Ebenezer fell asleep unborn 4 years ago in December as well. God in His wisdom has given us this bitter cup once again, it isn’t for us to know why. We drink of it and trust Him and confess that He is good and loving.
I’m so sad, a little angry but I am able to bless God for His goodness and love. I’ve asked “why” but I know the answer is the same reason we all die….sin. Death, our great enemy is not victorious, though it always looks that way to us. I am thankful and can rest knowing our 15th child lives and will not ever know the pains of this life.
Our memory verse through November was; Revelation 21:4 “He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” We long for that day.
Advent is here very fitting as we wait and yearn for the Savior to deliver us from this body of death, to end this world of sorrow, sickness and dying. We continue to pray “Come Lord Jesus!”
The LORD gave, and the LORD hath taken away; blessed be the name of the LORD.
